I know what you’re probably thinking.. SUPER CHEEZY. But give me a moment to explain.
On New Years Day of 2013, I was in a pretty dark place. I woke up that morning hating my life and no, unfortunately it wasn’t the hangover. I had spent the previous days fighting with my boyfriend. We were that couple that no-one took seriously. The constant off and on made us a joke. BUT somehow we couldn’t separate ourselves, no matter how toxic and violent things got.
So the day before New Years Eve we all went to the casino in South Lake Tahoe. I had a couple whiskey gingers too many and next thing you know, I had dislocated my knee on the dance floor! Not even kidding you, totally slipped and dislocated it during an epic Griz song, that I was going far to hard at.
My boyfriend, the obvious babysitter that night, carried me out of the club and iced my knee on his couch. Somehow I had left my phone unlocked when I fell asleep. And well, let’s just say he didn’t like some of the txt messages that had been sent a couple of nights previously. Since we had a habit at of being off an on, I tried to explain myself out of the situation, but I couldn’t deny the fact that I would have been just as furious.
So there I was the day of New Years Eve on his bathroom floor crying big ugly tears. I know what you’re probably thinking- yes, I totally deserved to cry big ugly tears and I agree.
BUT, it wasn’t just that this relationship was a mess. My life was a mess. I didn’t know what I wanted and I felt this overwhelming sense of constant loneliness. Basically I was using my boyfriend as a desperate attempt to fulfill this hollowness inside of me.
That afternoon when my friend texted me that I was a wildflower- I really had no idea what he meant. His response was: “It’s a metaphor. I just read about them, they grow in the marshes environment (the desert) store all their strength for when the rain comes and bloom against all odds.”
That moment sparked change in my life.
It might have helped that he chose kind inspiring words to motivate me. Or maybe he just saw something in me I had yet to discover. Nonetheless, I wanted to be that wildflower. I wanted to bloom against all odds. And so I did….
My purpose of this blog is to inspire you to find things in your life that elevate you to be the best version of yourself. Sometimes we just need someone to believe in ourselves…
And I believe in you!